Friday, September 28, 2007

Hello there, friends!!!

Oh, what a week it has been!
I am in desperate need of sleep, and have a kitchen full of boxes,
but I am smiling and loving this world!
I know this is all probably a little bit hard to understand, but it's like the weight has just been plucked from my shoulders and tossed into the ocean.
Both of us are comfortable with this decision, and happy with it.
I have not felt this free and this filled with joy in years.
There are very sad moments, from time to time...but it's all a part of the process.
The bottom line is that we are both setting out on paths to our destinies and we both agree that our time together was well spent, but that time is also up.
We will both be happier this way.
And I know in my heart that the kids will end up having a better relationship with him this way.
That may be hard for you to understand, but it's all I'm willing to say on the subject.
He is a good man, and did his very best to be a better husband and father than his own.
He succeeded.
I have had the most incredible support this week from a handful of amazing women,
without whom this move would not have been possible--either that or it would be only 1/3 of the way complete instead of 95%.
I feel so loved, so free!
It's the strangest sensation and I'll have to write a better post when I've had more sleep...
3 nights this week have been 2-hour nighters, one of which was last night.
I have so many great stories and I know I can communicate better if I sleep, so I'll write again tomorrow.
This is the 3rd night of sleeping in my new(old) home and it feels incredible!


Tricia said...

I'm glad things are working out for you, and you're feeling at peace with this. I just have one question...did the boys go with you, or stay with their dad?

Have fun settling into your new digs! One thing I've discovered is that it's very freeing to do things around the house however you want after all those years.

You're starting a difficult, scary, soul-changing journey. Keep us in on it, OK? We're here for ya all the way!

Lisa said...

That's my plan, Tricia!!! :)
And yes, the boys are with me--my little, sweet bears!!!

Bud said...

Yup, what Tricia said. I'm glad you feel so up about this. It's remarkable, really, given my own experience. Write when and what you can. Take care of this phase first. I'll be here.

d-man said...

You've got your wings back.

simply me said...

thanks for updating us. you've been in my thoughts.

you sound good. that just makes me smile. i'm happy to read that, for the most part, you both are in agreement that this is the way things need to go for both of you. what a healthy way to live life!

can i admit i'm slightly envious? okay... maybe even a bit more than slight.


Lisa said...

Oh, Leenie, baby--don't I know THAT feeling! I have been wanting this a long time, too, but it is just too hard to make that final decision if it's not what's "right" for both of us. Fortunately, we reached that point and we are so amicabale it's ridiculous. :) I could use a roommie...

Yes, yes I do, d-man! My feet hardly touch the ground anymore...

Thanks so much, Bud. Your presence is very comforting--ooo! I am back in the house where I wrote what would become Cruel in Utah! Sweet. I have missed these mountains, these sunsets--I had no views in the other house. Food for thought.

Becky..Absent Minded Housewife said...

This calls for Los Amigos...

Have a good sleep.

Nancy Dancehall said...

*hug* Glad you're landing on your feet.

Irrelephant said...

Isn't it a strange feeling? To be suddenly single again, to have feelings of exquisite freedom haul you skywards while the dark edges try to haul you back when little things remind you of what was before, what won't be again.

I remember that time in my own life quite vividly. It was a real roller coaster for a while there, but it worked out for the best. Hope yours does too. Best of luck always, Lisa!

amusing said...

You are so very wise and fortunate to have had a process toward this -- to have had those ups and downs and time to consider all the questions and search for the answers. I think it's the process -- allowing both people to work toward the conclusion together -- that allows for the amicable new relationship.

So yay.

Here's to new horizons -- and your views and vistas!

Orange said...

To quote Mel Gibson as William Wallace in Braveheart: FREEDOM!

Spread those wings, baby. When you catch the updraft under your wings and you soar toward the blue sky, it's gooood.

E. said...

I'm glad you're feeling exhilarated by the changes. It's been a long process, and it's good that you've reached an amicable situation w/ the Mr.

Best of luck with your new life. Can't wait to see all you do w/ it...

Lisa said...

I want to respond to you all, and write a dashing new post but I am once again sleep-deprived and looking at a long list of To-Dos as well as trying not to remember that I have lots of reading and/or homework to catch up on...fortunately the class with actual homework has soft deadlines, so nothing's late, I'm just getting behind. Gah.
Tomorrow boys start school and that should help.

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